2013: THE START OF SOMETHING NEW (LONG TIME NO SEE BLOGGIE DEARIE..^_^)
Assalamualaikum.=)
Ahem. HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!=D
Haven't seen you in awhile bloggie dear. well.. i have been, so.. so busy. obviously..
how long has it been? almost a year right? the last time i've been updating my blog was
the day i graduated. yea.. the happiest day of my life.. yet..^_^
to be perfectly honest, i've been dropping by a few times around the year..
it's not that i don't feel like writing anything. i do miss blogging.
it's just that. well, experience has taught me a lot.
i was afraid to even write in my own blog.
i felt more secure, writing in my diary. or in my laptop.
see, i hate it when i am fully aware that there are some people.. who just dunno when to quit.
some people are just so interested to know about what's been happening in my life,
to a point where it gets annoying. i mean, if you find me interesting, i'm flattered and everything..
but it can get, irritating.. when you keep questioning each and every move i make.
I DON'T LIKE LIVING UNDER THE MICROSCOPE.
i would prefer to be, behind the scenes, backstage, rather than in the spot light. so to speak.
i'm just tired of having these people around me who just can't seem to not want to know about
what i'm going to do next. my life is not a soap opera. go watch tv or something..
it's just pathetic. if all you want to do is to find something good to talk about with your friends
and the rest of the world, go bug someone else for a change. unless you're sincerely concern
or you really do care about me and the things i do, well then that's a whole other story.
okay. i don't wanna start my latest update of the year feeling all angry and annoyed.
hehe.. welllllll.. i dunno where to start actually. hmm.. okay.. let's start with.. my well being..=P
i am fine, thank you. ALHAMDULILLAH.=D
you don't know how long i've been wanting to say those words out loud.
see bloggie, i haven't really been fine.. in a while. i'm not saying i'm not okay
to a point where my whole life is falling apart. i'm just saying that...
most of the time, the things that has been happening around me can be pretty overwhelming.
it's like, one after the other. non-stop. again. and again. and again.. anddddd..
*now i'm lying on the cold hard floor. oh.. oh.. ohh.. trouble trouble.. trouble...=3*
hahaha.. one of my most favourite songs. you know how i am when i get addicted to some songs.
they keep replaying in my mind for weeks.. sometimes months. until i find a new soundtrack..=P
basically, i have been updating my daily happenings mostly on twitter and facebook.
YES. i am now on twitter. i'm a tweety bird..
TWEET tweet TWEET!!>_<
i never knew how addictive twitter is.
sometimes when i tweet, it can get out of control.
i just can't stop tweeting. however, i do catch myself before i go overboard.
coz i know how dangerous it can be when i keep speaking my thoughts out loud.
people can easily figure me out if i'm not careful. and i don't want that.
so, i try to.. ahh.. control myself from tweeting too much. from time to time..
huhu.. thankfully, it is still manageable..^_^
as of this moment, i am actually suppose to be studying for my mid semester exam.
but i dunno. i just feel like.. typing. i mean. at least i get to update myself online..
on my own blog. for once. this year. yea, it''s 2013. i know..
and only now, it's already what? april? may is coming soon..
goodness me. the time sure flies fast, i'm blinking through the seconds..
i'll give you this bloggie. my life right now? is a roller coaster ride.
i am now currently in my second short semester, in my second year of degree..
i've been.. busy. that's an understatement. okay.. i have been, immensely preoccupied
with.. so many.. things.. studies.. assignments.. classes.. music club.. tesl events..
theater practice.. family matters.. housemates issues (not anymore, thank god.)
annnnnnd also. i would say.. this other matter, i dunno what would be the best word to describe it..
okay. relationships. with friends. with.. people that i love. and really.. really care about.
i'm gonna be blunt with you bloggie. i can deal with my studies. it can be stressful..
but i'm used to it. i've been in msu for what.. almost 4 years now? so i know how rushing
short semesters can get. honestly, i do not mind the rush. i love the rush.
i get to keep myself busy with things that i love to do.
i get to study, do group work and assignments (classes are not bad either)
i get to spend time with my classmates and friends in between and after..
i get to be involved with extra curricular activities like theater and the music club..
i get to be a part of tesl events. msu events. build up my confidence..
so bottom line, i don't mind the rush at all. i enjoy it. it can be exhausting..
it can take a lot.. i mean, a lot of my energy. but it does not matter that much..
as long as i am doing something that i enjoy and love to do.^_^
so.. on the other hand. among these things.. frankly, i also use them as distractions.
i love how much i can distract myself with studies. it's something good for me.
i get to improve myself from time to time, get better grades, gain more knowledge..
make new friends. and above all, i get to be a better person day by day.=)
i'm happy really. i'm very happy and grateful. coz i am studying and doing something that i love.
i really love English. and i enjoy being a TESL student. really i do.
it's just that. things are not always as it seems bloggie.
how i wish some things.. would be a lot clearer. i don't exactly wish for it to be different. no.
i just wish that some people, would be more honest with me. i know it can be really hard to do that..
but why put me in these difficult position? why put me in a delicate situation?
why hurt my feelings? why hurt me again.. and again.. and again.. and again..? why?
why ask me questions or say things and then leave me hanging? why?
if these keep happening.. i would commit suicide. *metaphorically speaking*
i should be dead by now. i'm mentally drained. i am.. emotionally exhausted.
i'm tired bloggie. i'm so.. soo.. oh so tired.
i can't get into details. i wish i could. but again. safety precaution.
i give the details. but not the main point. yet it's annoying actually. i mean..
why spill the details if you don't just tell what you're talking about right?
well sucks for you then. haha.. this is my blog anyway. so i have the right to do anything i want.
MUAHAHAHAHA..>=D
I should learn how to stop leaving people wondering. i have fun doing it though..
wayyyy to much fun to let the cat out of the bag. but then again..
i know how it feels when i'm in the receiving end. heh. well. life does that to you.
it gives you a taste of it's own medicine. it's not that bad.. (coming from a person
who wanted to metaphorically jump off a cliff on the third day of not knowing
what the hell does this guy want from me???=_=)
ohoho. i let that slipped didn't i? wow. i just realized how much i missed you bloggie.
but for now, let's call it a night alright. i have my Literature exam tomorrow.
i can't be overconfident. i have to study for it. i've only gone through the notes.
havent reallllly read them carefully. but i sure hope i could pass the paper with flying colours.
but just for fun, i'm gonna give you.. a little preview. about.. well..
how i'm feeling right now okay. i've been blessed with such good friends lately..
and i realized how much they really care about me. i'm glad i met them, and i get to know them better.
so.. i am grateful. and happy. the word is, HAPPY.^_^♥ ♥ ♥
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Ahem. HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!=D
Haven't seen you in awhile bloggie dear. well.. i have been, so.. so busy. obviously..
how long has it been? almost a year right? the last time i've been updating my blog was
the day i graduated. yea.. the happiest day of my life.. yet..^_^
to be perfectly honest, i've been dropping by a few times around the year..
it's not that i don't feel like writing anything. i do miss blogging.
it's just that. well, experience has taught me a lot.
i was afraid to even write in my own blog.
i felt more secure, writing in my diary. or in my laptop.
see, i hate it when i am fully aware that there are some people.. who just dunno when to quit.
some people are just so interested to know about what's been happening in my life,
to a point where it gets annoying. i mean, if you find me interesting, i'm flattered and everything..
but it can get, irritating.. when you keep questioning each and every move i make.
I DON'T LIKE LIVING UNDER THE MICROSCOPE.
i would prefer to be, behind the scenes, backstage, rather than in the spot light. so to speak.
i'm just tired of having these people around me who just can't seem to not want to know about
what i'm going to do next. my life is not a soap opera. go watch tv or something..
it's just pathetic. if all you want to do is to find something good to talk about with your friends
and the rest of the world, go bug someone else for a change. unless you're sincerely concern
or you really do care about me and the things i do, well then that's a whole other story.
okay. i don't wanna start my latest update of the year feeling all angry and annoyed.
hehe.. welllllll.. i dunno where to start actually. hmm.. okay.. let's start with.. my well being..=P
i am fine, thank you. ALHAMDULILLAH.=D
you don't know how long i've been wanting to say those words out loud.
see bloggie, i haven't really been fine.. in a while. i'm not saying i'm not okay
to a point where my whole life is falling apart. i'm just saying that...
most of the time, the things that has been happening around me can be pretty overwhelming.
it's like, one after the other. non-stop. again. and again. and again.. anddddd..
*now i'm lying on the cold hard floor. oh.. oh.. ohh.. trouble trouble.. trouble...=3*
hahaha.. one of my most favourite songs. you know how i am when i get addicted to some songs.
they keep replaying in my mind for weeks.. sometimes months. until i find a new soundtrack..=P
basically, i have been updating my daily happenings mostly on twitter and facebook.
YES. i am now on twitter. i'm a tweety bird..
TWEET tweet TWEET!!>_<
i never knew how addictive twitter is.
sometimes when i tweet, it can get out of control.
i just can't stop tweeting. however, i do catch myself before i go overboard.
coz i know how dangerous it can be when i keep speaking my thoughts out loud.
people can easily figure me out if i'm not careful. and i don't want that.
so, i try to.. ahh.. control myself from tweeting too much. from time to time..
huhu.. thankfully, it is still manageable..^_^
as of this moment, i am actually suppose to be studying for my mid semester exam.
but i dunno. i just feel like.. typing. i mean. at least i get to update myself online..
on my own blog. for once. this year. yea, it''s 2013. i know..
and only now, it's already what? april? may is coming soon..
goodness me. the time sure flies fast, i'm blinking through the seconds..
i'll give you this bloggie. my life right now? is a roller coaster ride.
i am now currently in my second short semester, in my second year of degree..
i've been.. busy. that's an understatement. okay.. i have been, immensely preoccupied
with.. so many.. things.. studies.. assignments.. classes.. music club.. tesl events..
theater practice.. family matters.. housemates issues (not anymore, thank god.)
annnnnnd also. i would say.. this other matter, i dunno what would be the best word to describe it..
okay. relationships. with friends. with.. people that i love. and really.. really care about.
i'm gonna be blunt with you bloggie. i can deal with my studies. it can be stressful..
but i'm used to it. i've been in msu for what.. almost 4 years now? so i know how rushing
short semesters can get. honestly, i do not mind the rush. i love the rush.
i get to keep myself busy with things that i love to do.
i get to study, do group work and assignments (classes are not bad either)
i get to spend time with my classmates and friends in between and after..
i get to be involved with extra curricular activities like theater and the music club..
i get to be a part of tesl events. msu events. build up my confidence..
so bottom line, i don't mind the rush at all. i enjoy it. it can be exhausting..
it can take a lot.. i mean, a lot of my energy. but it does not matter that much..
as long as i am doing something that i enjoy and love to do.^_^
so.. on the other hand. among these things.. frankly, i also use them as distractions.
i love how much i can distract myself with studies. it's something good for me.
i get to improve myself from time to time, get better grades, gain more knowledge..
make new friends. and above all, i get to be a better person day by day.=)
i'm happy really. i'm very happy and grateful. coz i am studying and doing something that i love.
i really love English. and i enjoy being a TESL student. really i do.
it's just that. things are not always as it seems bloggie.
how i wish some things.. would be a lot clearer. i don't exactly wish for it to be different. no.
i just wish that some people, would be more honest with me. i know it can be really hard to do that..
but why put me in these difficult position? why put me in a delicate situation?
why hurt my feelings? why hurt me again.. and again.. and again.. and again..? why?
why ask me questions or say things and then leave me hanging? why?
if these keep happening.. i would commit suicide. *metaphorically speaking*
i should be dead by now. i'm mentally drained. i am.. emotionally exhausted.
i'm tired bloggie. i'm so.. soo.. oh so tired.
i can't get into details. i wish i could. but again. safety precaution.
i give the details. but not the main point. yet it's annoying actually. i mean..
why spill the details if you don't just tell what you're talking about right?
well sucks for you then. haha.. this is my blog anyway. so i have the right to do anything i want.
MUAHAHAHAHA..>=D
I should learn how to stop leaving people wondering. i have fun doing it though..
wayyyy to much fun to let the cat out of the bag. but then again..
i know how it feels when i'm in the receiving end. heh. well. life does that to you.
it gives you a taste of it's own medicine. it's not that bad.. (coming from a person
who wanted to metaphorically jump off a cliff on the third day of not knowing
what the hell does this guy want from me???=_=)
ohoho. i let that slipped didn't i? wow. i just realized how much i missed you bloggie.
but for now, let's call it a night alright. i have my Literature exam tomorrow.
i can't be overconfident. i have to study for it. i've only gone through the notes.
havent reallllly read them carefully. but i sure hope i could pass the paper with flying colours.
but just for fun, i'm gonna give you.. a little preview. about.. well..
how i'm feeling right now okay. i've been blessed with such good friends lately..
and i realized how much they really care about me. i'm glad i met them, and i get to know them better.
so.. i am grateful. and happy. the word is, HAPPY.^_^♥ ♥ ♥
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