To Be Or Not To Be?? I dunno.. u tell me..=)

salam.. hello bloggie dearie.. lama x jumpe..;)

k.. tbe2 rasa mcm rajin la plak kan nk update blog ni huhu..

so anyways.. er.. there is a reason why i dun update my blog regularly frm time to time..

i wud prefer to write in my diary.. where it wud be much much safer for me to truly write down how i really feel n all.. huhu.. kononnye nk mengambil langkah berjaga2 la ni.. hehe..

dat is also d reason why i dun exactly tell ppl i hv a blog.. aha.. which makes me feel safer to post watever it is dat i want to post about since i know not many ppl wud even bother reading my blog..=P

so okay.. alhmdulillah td smpt anta mama g airport..

tq so much to my good friend Naufal yg sudi tlg tmpgkan sya ke klia td..

wlpn sesat kejap smpai ke lcct, i did get d chance to meet mama juz in time b4 she leaves..=')

bygkan eyh.. mama nye flight kul 10.30pm.. mama nk masuk terminal tu kul 9.30pm..

kul 9pm kami baru tersedar yg naufal da salah jln ke lcct.. okay agk panic kejap..

nasib baik akak fatin suraya ada.. huhu.. dila pun x sedar yg naufal salah jln..

anyways smpai klia kul 9.15pm.. d moment naufal stopped d car i literally ran out like hell inside d airport.. *mmg nyesal gila pakai kasut raya 3 inci tu..* =.=

yelah.. igt smpt smpai.. xsgka plak kena lari kan..

da mcm drama plak dah.. klau dlm filem kan biasanye si boyfriend mngejar si girlfriend kan sblm si girlfriend tu tingglkan msia utk slama2nye ke ape ke kan.. before its too late la konon si boyfriend ni nk luahkan la luahan isi hati dia pada si girlfriend sblm si girlfriend tu pegi..

tp scene ini laen sket..

ni anak yg keja mak sblm mak berangkat g umrah.. huhu..

mana lg sweet? eyh cheyh2..^.~

so 3 inci pun 3 inci la sya belari masuk ke pintu gerbang klia tu mencari terminal s7..

masuk2 je da penuh org kiri kanan tgk sya berlari dengan smgt nye..

lari punye lari x tgk kiri kanan, duk mencari terminal s7 tbe2 ada org sebut nama sya..

pndg kiri smue auntie2 uncle2 cuzzin2 ada kt situ.. tp yg sya nmpk sorg je..

mama saya..=') nmpk mama je trus peluk n terus nangiiiiiisss....

heheheh.. biasela.. sya ni mmg senang nangis lg2 bnda2 camni lg senang nk nangis kan..

huhuhu.. alhmdullilah sempat jgk jumpe mama.. da abes slm smue org kami pun berarak la ke..

ke.. er.. ape nama tu.. tmpt pelepasan tu la kan.. peluk la mama.. ckp ape yg patut..

xtau nk ckp ape sbnrnye juz lega dpt jumpe mama.. told her to take care of herself..

told her to pray for me.. x smpt nk ckp detail sbb mama da nk pegi da..

so biasala, mama da turun escalator tu mula la sesi melambai dan bye..

kteorg smue tunggu smpai la mama betul2 ilg masuk check in..

actually kan.. dila jrg post blog in malay kan.. hehe.. ntahla..

tbe2 arini rasa nk post in malay plak.. mcm lg best je nk cite.. huhu..;)

so okay.. since naufal, abg mirul n fatin suraya sdg menunggu sya..

sya pun salam la smue org.. x smpt nk spent time ngan cuzzin2 dila..

smpt peluk cium je.. huhu.. xpela.. insyallah cuti nk dpt spent time ngan diorg..

ni yg x sbr nk cuti ni.. one thing mama xde tu mmg la sedey cuti 10 hari mama xde kan..

so.. mama xde.. tp tp.. KERETA MAMA ADA.. muahahaha!!

boleh la sya practice membawa kreta slps ini.. hihihi..

xpe2.. da mintak izin mama da.. janji kayum ada insyallah xde pape yg akan berlaku..XD

so dats one thing to look forward to 4 d holidays..

really i think i wud really want to enjoy my holidays..

but at d same time nk mencari material, idea, n ape yg patut utk praktikal..

waaaaaah!! nex sem da last sem koooottt.. cpt kan masa berlalu.. huhu..

pejam celik pejam celik da nk abes praktikal.. hmm..

da mule takot da utk praktikal sbnrnye.. yelah..

slama ni mmg best blaja tesl kt msu.. dpt blaja n enjoy sgt2..

bg dila mmg best la college life dila kt sini, alhmdulillah..=)

but now i wud hv to get ready for d 14 weeks of teaching in a real primary school..

in a real classroom.. with real small, cute lil children.. hehe..

hey.. a teacher is what i wanted to b since i was young..

n dat passion grew n grew n now i aim for d highest possible aim..

to be a professor before i reach 30 years old..=)

yeah.. kind of ambitious dun u think? but like i have stated before..

juz becoz i'm taking tesl doesnt mean i HAVE to be a teacher..

there r many other possibilities n careers dat can be considered..

mayb a journalist? a lecturer of coz.. n many more..

but we'll see how it goes.. being a teacher is great, i know..

i always idolize my teachers for doing what i do..

coz it takes a lot to be a teacher u know.. its not dat easy..

u wud really hv to hv t passion for it..

n to really want to b able to teach n love children n of coz..

be dedicated n commited in teaching..

*bole plak nk insert psl accountability kt sini kan..;p*

so.. like i alwys say.. i will do d best i can..

to go a far as i can go to achieve my dream.. insyallah..=)

sebenar nye kte da sgt lari dr topic.. laen yg sya nk cite laen yg diceritakannye.. hehe..

biasala.. bile org tu da suke menulis n lg2 bile da ada mood nk mnulis..

haha.. jeng3.. karangan essay short story sya bg..;)

to be or not to be? hehehe.. actually xde pape sgt pun..

its juz dat.. well.. i juz found out smthing rather..

peculiar.. is it d right word? no no..

smthing.. smthing yg menimbulkan kecurigaan la senang cite..

memang musykil. huhu.. pdhal benda tu satu ayat je tau..

wlpn dia satu ayt.. tp satu ayt tu la yg bole membawa seribu juta satu maksud..

hehehe.. dila nk cite ngan lebey lanjut.. tp tp..

xpela.. hehe.. dila bg d big picture je.. hihi..

but wat i can say.. is.. if dis is wat i think it is..

n if wat i think it is will.. u know.. happens..

i myte actually.. go for it.. really..

i've been saying to myself dat i hv reached d point..

where.. i wud like to experience dis kind of thing..

i know.. some ppl say dis thing is not juz like, experiencing d first time ice skating ke ape ke..

where u juz simply do it for d sake of trying.. or juz for fun.. no..

dis kind of thing, is a lil bit more serious than ice skating..

mcm dila kata.. dila juz nk cube n know how it feels to be in dat kind of position..

in dat kind of place.. in dat kind of, feeling n.. juz curious to know how good or great it really feels

like how they claimed.. or how it may hurt u so bad as what others complained..

*ayat mmg gila metaphoric n ambiguity kan..;p ;p ;p*

tp klau da it can b smthing dat is going well..

smthing dat turns out to be smthing amazing n wonderful n may even be

dat one thing dat i have been looking for frm d moment i tot about it..

alhmdulillah la.. hehe.. klau ada jodoh, ada la.. klau xde.. xpela..

not saying dat i am hoping for it.. well, hope tu mesti la ada sket kan..

but it wont b dat high.. klau hope sgt nnt kang frust plak kan..

hehe.. ape yg tersirat dah pun tersurat..

*dila pun xtau ape yg dila mngarot ni sbnrnye..;P*

tp klau betul la kan..

if it is wat i think it is..

hihihihi.. mmg excited la kan nk tau..

let's juz wait n see, shall we? =)

so for now i think i really need to go n sleep..

its 5am dila for god sake u need to go n sleep..

alg2 tunggu la subuh dulu.. huhu..

tomorrow.. eyh.. i mean later today..

gonna start going thru all those lesson plans..

n then n then.. nk start packing la..

nk balik kl.. huhu.. org nervous nk exam..

kte excited nk packing plak..;)

nasib baek paper pedagogy.. xde nk study sgt..

huhu.. so okay.. i've said wat i have to say..

n now.. gonna go n change to my pjs..

wait for subuh.. then go n sleep..

gnyte bloggie.. love u!!;) daa..~